I get scared and then I feel empty… and I enjoy it

Regardless if it’s through a webcam in front of one, in a room in front of many or in a stage in front of hundreds, the minutes before I’m supposed to talk to an audience I always get nervous and scared, and I like it.

Whether I’m presenting what I know, sharing how I think or showing what I did, 100%: I feel I’m going to massively fail expressing it and I love that. 

You might think: why does he enjoy being scared or nervous?

Well, it’s because in those situations I feel more alive! The intensity of the buildup moments makes me feel more connected to my purpose, so I give my best. If it wasn’t difficult for me, I wouldn’t feel a thing thus it won’t make a difference for me or for others. 

And afterwards, I have to feel empty. Like in sports, the emptiness of a victory. That’s when I know I gave everything I had, like champions do.

So yes. After decades of doing it, I still freak out before talking in public and feel empty after doing it… and I love both.